I shall Return. -Steph

I know..I know. Super duper over mega hyper tamad ko mag-update ng blog since last year. I have lots of stories to tell:

1. How did my wedding go?
2. Saab’s 3rd birthday
3. Christmas and New Year
4. Updates pa more about how my life went

Diba? I really wanted to show you the pictures during my wedding as in! But as you all know I did not hire a professional wedding planner and that leaves all the work to me. Di ko naman kasi akalain na ganun pala ka-stressful magplano ng sariling wedding no! Hayaan nyo next time I know na what to do. But I can say that it was really fulfilling. 🙂 I’d also share with you my ratings for my suppliers. I have so many utang blog posts na huhu.

Pagbalik ko kasi ng January aba! Yung mga trainings namin e back to back to back to back! Dinaig pa yung pagsalubong ng kamag-anak sa bagong uwi na OFW e. Ganun ang pagsalubong namin sa New Year! As in ganun na nakaka-pressure. Medyo bagong client kasi namin to kaya Big Deal kung Big Deal talaga. 🙂

So yeah, I’ll try my best to compose myself para I won’t be ngarag and I’d be able to share with you our Big Day. As of the moment, let’s enjoy muna the weekend. 🙂 hihi

18 going on 28

I’m just counting the days and I am eventually 2 years from getting 30 years old. They say 28 is too young. There will be a lot of realizations and lessons that I will come across as I grow older. And yes, they are apparently right. Actually, even if I don’t wait to be a 30-year old career woman I have learned and still learning a lot of things about life.

            FRIENDS

Last night I had the advance Birthday Celebration in Yakimix. It was my first time to try out their buffet, mejo mas feel ko ang Vikings pa din or Dad’s. Probably because most of the food available in Yakimix are seafood, e I am allergic to seafood so di ko ma-enjoy at baka maisugod ako sa Makati Med ng di oras.

Anyway, though I just made myself busy eating more of the desserts I just realized that I am lucky to have our friends around us. Sila yung tipo ng tao na every Friday mararamdaman mo ang pagka-clingy. Kahit 8 hours na kami magkakasama sa opisina they would always make kulit to spend time with them. Like simple dinner lang or merienda tapos madameng kwento. Happy na kami nun. At napapadalas, overnight sila sa bahay. The boys are downstairs playing xbox while us girls will stay upstairs making chismis and looking after Saab hanggang sa makatulog na lang kami lahat. 🙂

I have gained a lot of friends but not everyone is there to stay, not everyone is there to be with you during your darkest days. Siguro swerte lang talaga kami ni Martin because we have friends like them. 🙂

My partner in crime – FOREVER

We don’t have the perfect relationship. We are neither perfect. But we are perfect for each other ♥ Naks! haha

As I turn 28 on Monday, it will also be our third Wedding Anniversary. Ang bilis no? It has already been three years since we made our promise to each other to stay together for better or worse, in sickness and in health until death do we part. Nandyan yung tipong  mgkakasakit si Saab and we are left with no choice but to look after her kahit na puyat na puyat na kami. Andyan din yung papasok bigla yung mga tao from the past, at biglang wiwindangin ka. Meron din kami experience na we struggled financially and he needs to look for another job na minsan e di na kami nagkikita because of differences in our schedules. But I can say na we’re getting stronger as years pass us by. We are wiser and braver. We learned to prioritize things. We taught each other how to listen and understand. And most importantly, he taught me that the road to married life is always under construction – it’s always in progress. ♥

Lastly, my life will not be complete without Isabella. 🙂

She literally changed my entire life. From the way I handle things hanggang sa decision-making. She definitely made me a better person inside and out. Hindi man agad ibigay ni GOD yung wish ko na magkaroon ng second baby, I am still thankful that I have this bumble bee in my life. Dati ang dali ko umiyak pag pagod na ako sa work, but now that we have Saab bawal na yun. 🙂 I need to compose myself and learn the duties of Motherhood. I am not a perfect Mom, and I can bravely say that no one is a perfect Mom. We all have our shortcomings but the luckiest part of it is that no matter how imperfect we may look at ourselves,  in their innocent eyes we are always the perfect people.

Being 28 does not feel bad after all. 🙂 Knowing I have these treasures that money can’t buy.

Goodbye July, Hello August! – Feeling Thankful! ♥

Happy Monday my dear Readers/co-bloggers! 🙂

I hope you all are doing awesome while reading this entry. 🙂

It’s the third of August and it’s Monday! 🙂 I assume that most of us are on their panic mode. Whether you’re a SAHM or a Working Mom. Our job as Mothers are just pretty demanding!

Time flies mommies ano? Nakakagulat kasi isang pikit lang ng mata ko, hala! August na ulet. Birthday ko na 🙂

Sh*t I’m turning 28! For real?!

I remembered when I was still single, mga around 20ish yata ako nun. I made a list of the things I wanted to achieve by the time I turn 30. If I’m not mistaken I wrote there:  “I should have my own car by 25.” ;  “I should be able to travel the country”; “I should be able to pursue Medicine”; “I should have around Php 500,000 in my savings account.” Ang taas lang ng expectations ko before no? And I realized that wala dun sa mga plans ko ang mgkaron ng family and magkaroon ng baby.

Totoo! I’m not kidding. Sobrang OC kasi ako (until now). Ako kasi si “Planner” – hindi ako mabubuhay ng walang planner sa buhay. I want everything in order, lahat maayos, lahat dapat ready, lahat should fall into place kasi pag hindi, naku! Iinit ang ulo ko talaga. But everything changed when I had Saab. 🙂

When I first knew that I was pregnant, hindi sya agad nag-sync in sa akin. Kahit kay Martin. Talagang ngpatest ulit ako nun sa OB para matauhan kami pareho. Tapos ayun na, totoo pala talaga sya. I was 2 months pregnant na nung nalaman namin. Sabi ko talaga sa inyo mga mommies, nakakawindang kasi nga diba? We did not really expect it. So talagang struggle sa amin pareho yun. But I am not saying na ayaw namin mag-kababy. Ayun naman yung kahit kelan ay hindi sumagi sa isip namin. Siguro thankful din ako na si Martin yung naging hubby ko kasi not all men are brave enough to be a dad. Hindi ko naman minamaliit yung ibang daddies, of course meron silang kanya-kanyang reasons.

Nakakagulat lang mga mommies kasi, whenever I tried to look back and reflect on the things I have done in the last 27 years of my life. I can bravely say that meron naman akong na-improve sa pgkatao ko. Ang nakakagulat nga is that I became more responsible (totoo! Maniwala kayo, lalo na yung mga friends ko jan) 🙂

Iba kasi talaga ang adjustment pag naging mommy/parent ka na. Talagang LAHAT as in LAHAT ay magbabago. Idagdag mo pa ang napaka demanding kong trabaho sa bahay at sa opisina. We don’t have a yaya btw, so kami lang talaga lahat gumagawa. From the laundry, cleaning the house and doing other household chores.. and taking care of Saab.

I just realized na even if I did not plan on having a baby yet when I was younger, I was lucky enough to have Saab in my life. I may not be able to pursue Medicine but Saab taught me a lot of things na I will not be able to find in any book. She taught me the value of patience, hardwork and selfless love. I never thought I will be able to love a person na hindi ko pa nakikita. I never thought na may ie-extend pa pala ang patience ko.I never thought na I can tolerate such pain when I was in labor, for the sake of the one you love.

Right Mommies? I was just so happy that Saab was able to teach me a lot of wonderful and extraordinary things in life. 🙂

So there, as I go back and reflect on the things I have done in the past 27 years.. I can say that I am the BETTER VERSION of myself.

The Best Teacher I had so far was EXPERIENCE.

It’s back to work Mommy!

I only had like 4 hours of sleep last night. I need to get up at around 4 AM to get ready for work, in addition to that I couldn’t sleep right away last night because;

1) Saab wouldn’t want me to leave her in bed 😦 so I needed to sneak out of the room and I was left with no choice but to leave her crying with my MIL. (Oh poor baby, I wish Mommy has all the time to spend it with you)

2) I could not sleep well because apparently my husband was watching the Wimbledon Finals. Though I think that it was really a good game. 🙂

3) I was able to do all half of our laundry, cleaned the living room and dusty staircase 🙂 Ohhh-emm-gee that felt heaven. I felt productive last Sunday. 🙂 #happymom #missionaccomplished

4) We get to bond with our little girl last Saturday and watched The Minions 🙂 It was super duper fun. I find Saab so funny whenever she imitates how the minions talk like the “Bah-nanah” hahaha 😀 Here’s her happy face last Sunday. It was raining so she was not able to show off her backless dress and my husband made her wear her jacket instead. Regardless, she still looks adorable! 🙂 ♥

Isn’t she lovely?

So, it’s Monday. Yeah I know, it was like two weeks after I blogged again (boo). As much as I’d like to blog everyday but my hectic schedule won’t let me. I’ve said this before, being a mom is a LOT of hard work. Period.

This week, we are expecting another new hire class for our Account. It means, more work and more work and trainings. I am enjoying it though, I know I super love my job next to my family but sometimes I wish I could get to spend more time with Saab. Instead of teaching other people, I badly wanted to teach my daughter a lot of things. The alphabets, nursery rhymes, pronunciations and stuff like that.

I wonder how other working supermoms do all the juggling of tasks at home, at work and their personal life.

Changes

First, I was kinda surprised to see an increase in my blog viewers. -Thank you! Thanks for sharing your thoughts and heartfelt comments with me. I really appreciate it! 🙂

Second, I had this feeling last night. The kind of feeling that you just want to lie in bed and let yourself be lost in thoughts. Weird. I never had that feeling for quite sometime. Well of course, this world has evolved into a fast-paced, high-tech planet. You’d be left behind if you can’t follow it’s pace. But honestly, sometimes it’s tiring. Do you agree?

And so, this leads me to my next topic – Change.

They have a lot to say about change.

Change is inevitable. Change is the only permanent thing in this world. Change is for strong people. Change is a  process. And so on and so forth.

Why do people change? Why is it so difficult to change? Why is change invented?

Change. This won’t sound strange because all of us knows that change is difficult to accept (well, at first. I’d say).

I’m thinking of having a big change in my Life. Not now, but soon. It’s just that I am really afraid and I have a lot of questions and worries in mind because I was so used to my comfort zone. I’m used to staying inside the box day in and day out. I am so comfortable with the people around me. I like and love what I am doing. But are these all enough for me to stay? and eliminate change?

I’m still asking signs (from up there) with what should I pursue.

Is it best to stay and be safe?

Or is it worth the change I’ll make?

The act of being nice

My friends often told me how mean I am most of the time, but I don’t take it seriously. I just laugh with them since I know that in a girl world, 90% of the time there will be rumors and gossips about someone you don’t like, or probably someone who does not dress well, speaks well, or it could probably be any random stranger. Let us admit it, it’s human nature to criticize. Even the hottest celebrities in Hollywood has critics. But when does criticism becomes inappropriate?

Criticism has it’s pros and cons. For those who are well-focused on improvement, they would actually take criticism in a positive outlook. This can be based on the improvement of their teaching strategies, improvement on customer satisfaction, or improvement of the company. Others would see criticism as something that can downgrade or affect their superiority complex and make them feel that they are inferior.

The bottom line  is, criticism can be projected as something good if it was followed by an action to improve on a specific weakness or shortcoming. It can be tagged as something negative if you will just stop because you are bad at it. Why not do something to make you good at it?

We all criticize, at the back of our mind we are all critics. But we feel bad if we were the ones being criticized. Funny. So this is me saying, “The BEST feeling in the world is to do the things that others tell you , you cannot do.”