Happy Monday my dear Readers/co-bloggers! 🙂
I hope you all are doing awesome while reading this entry. 🙂
It’s the third of August and it’s Monday! 🙂 I assume that most of us are on their panic mode. Whether you’re a SAHM or a Working Mom. Our job as Mothers are just pretty demanding!
Time flies mommies ano? Nakakagulat kasi isang pikit lang ng mata ko, hala! August na ulet. Birthday ko na 🙂
Sh*t I’m turning 28! For real?!
I remembered when I was still single, mga around 20ish yata ako nun. I made a list of the things I wanted to achieve by the time I turn 30. If I’m not mistaken I wrote there: “I should have my own car by 25.” ; “I should be able to travel the country”; “I should be able to pursue Medicine”; “I should have around Php 500,000 in my savings account.” Ang taas lang ng expectations ko before no? And I realized that wala dun sa mga plans ko ang mgkaron ng family and magkaroon ng baby.
Totoo! I’m not kidding. Sobrang OC kasi ako (until now). Ako kasi si “Planner” – hindi ako mabubuhay ng walang planner sa buhay. I want everything in order, lahat maayos, lahat dapat ready, lahat should fall into place kasi pag hindi, naku! Iinit ang ulo ko talaga. But everything changed when I had Saab. 🙂
When I first knew that I was pregnant, hindi sya agad nag-sync in sa akin. Kahit kay Martin. Talagang ngpatest ulit ako nun sa OB para matauhan kami pareho. Tapos ayun na, totoo pala talaga sya. I was 2 months pregnant na nung nalaman namin. Sabi ko talaga sa inyo mga mommies, nakakawindang kasi nga diba? We did not really expect it. So talagang struggle sa amin pareho yun. But I am not saying na ayaw namin mag-kababy. Ayun naman yung kahit kelan ay hindi sumagi sa isip namin. Siguro thankful din ako na si Martin yung naging hubby ko kasi not all men are brave enough to be a dad. Hindi ko naman minamaliit yung ibang daddies, of course meron silang kanya-kanyang reasons.
Nakakagulat lang mga mommies kasi, whenever I tried to look back and reflect on the things I have done in the last 27 years of my life. I can bravely say that meron naman akong na-improve sa pgkatao ko. Ang nakakagulat nga is that I became more responsible (totoo! Maniwala kayo, lalo na yung mga friends ko jan) 🙂
Iba kasi talaga ang adjustment pag naging mommy/parent ka na. Talagang LAHAT as in LAHAT ay magbabago. Idagdag mo pa ang napaka demanding kong trabaho sa bahay at sa opisina. We don’t have a yaya btw, so kami lang talaga lahat gumagawa. From the laundry, cleaning the house and doing other household chores.. and taking care of Saab.
I just realized na even if I did not plan on having a baby yet when I was younger, I was lucky enough to have Saab in my life. I may not be able to pursue Medicine but Saab taught me a lot of things na I will not be able to find in any book. She taught me the value of patience, hardwork and selfless love. I never thought I will be able to love a person na hindi ko pa nakikita. I never thought na may ie-extend pa pala ang patience ko.I never thought na I can tolerate such pain when I was in labor, for the sake of the one you love.
Right Mommies? I was just so happy that Saab was able to teach me a lot of wonderful and extraordinary things in life. 🙂
So there, as I go back and reflect on the things I have done in the past 27 years.. I can say that I am the BETTER VERSION of myself.